The first time we parted I wrote:
Night falls imperceptibly, stars sporadically pin point the soft canopy of sky.
Darkness threatens to permeate all with its melancholy.
My soul cannot bear the imminence of sadness washing over.
Longing for lost love, sadness overwhelming reason,
A heaviness, a flooding surge of tragedy
Tears spent, tears welling, tears impending.
Nothing can quell the hurt,
The longing for my love
But each day brings more of the same
Unrelentingly more of the same...and on it goes.
Nothing will change, only my lover can change it
How long can it go on, this pain ?
How long can it be made to bear ?
It consumes my will
I want to kiss death, only death can charm it away.
Death, wind your comforting arms around my heart,
Spill into my being, make velvet black my despair,
Make all velvet black, soft, and I disappear
To be no longer.
Now nearly two years on I write:
Heart crushed yet one more time, and by the same errant,
By the same silver tongued voyeur.
One sees only what the heart wants to see
Believes only what the heart wants to believe.
The game so clear to all others
This cat and mouse charade so obvious,
But not to this Åpril fool.
The love of my life...but I not his
My irrepressible heart implores me
No more please...forgive and move on
And so I must
