Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Why ?

I watched a program on Quentin Crisp last night, he had so many answers, died alone, but won't we all? Something that biffed me - we can love but it's best to expect nothing in return, unrequited love it seems is de rigeur, no the only thing that can get one through without heart ache or behemoth disappointment is to have no expectations of anyone. Our happiness is reliant on nobody but ourselves. It makes me uneasy, I yearn for the love of someone, both the warm physicality of love and the kaleidoscope of emotions that travel with love. I long to be sucked into its eddy of blissfulness... the path to a zen me is yet agonizingly out of reach ...

3 comments:

  1. I guess there is a distinction between love and attachment. All our griefs come from attachment to people or situation or objects. To live without attachment is hard. I think the hard part is to realise is that you are responsable for your feelings, happiness, and this is no small challenge. It requires time and most importantly imagination! _Creating_ ones own happiness is what life is about, isn't it?

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  2. A life without attachment seems almost futile, does it mean if I want the warm physicality of love that it is OK to sleep with anyone even though my heart yearns for another. My heart has been crushed again and I think my chest will explode and perhaps my head as well

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  3. But again, this is attachment to physicality, not happiness. Its as if trying to find happiness via alcohol, you will never achieve it. Even when you d get what you want it will only last seconds. People are not made happy by what they consume but what they give. This is love. Everything else is attachment to vice which will ultimately betray and destroy you.

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